Is it selfish for an ugly guy like me to love an attractive woman?

The more I think about it, it's very selfish of an ugly person like me to be attracted to a hot woman. I might find her attractive but if she doesn't find me attractive then only I am getting pleasure in the relationship and that is inherently selfish of me. A beautiful woman needs a beautiful man to love her, so she can receive as well as give pleasure. If I really love a woman, I want her have as much pleasure as possible, even at my own expense. If she is taking all my money and in bed with a male model, that gives me the most pleasure because she is getting pleasure from spending my money, from making out with a beautiful man, and from not having to look at my ugly face or even acknowledge my existence.